Sailing Away!

As the shallow sea waves gently wash my feet,
I watch the ships sail away,in a moment so fleet.
So close yet drifting away,a difference so discreet,
I call out to the deaf,and hollowness I greet.

As they melt away into the horizon,
I stand rooted,though i want to run,
Should i have let go?Should i have held on?
I know they will return,but for now they are gone!

And a tumult of enigmatic emotion overrides me,
Once the mist clears,just where will they be?
Was i never an asset,only a liability?
I only sleep because in dreams i dont see reality.

Voices are bland,and faces abject,
Cant help but feel dislike and neglect.
Striving to stay afloat in this quagmire,
I pray what I say proves me a liar.

I gave all I had ,I cannot give more,
In search of shelter,I knock door to door.
But I know my darkest night i should fend alone,
This way maybe for my sins I can atone.

Counting my heartbeats,i dream past midnight,
Raindrops reckon as tears take flight.
And as I delve within to search for a reason,
I wish Autumn passes,bringing a change in season.

Everything I build, seems to be tumbling down,
Somewhere in this debris,my name is just a noun.
Yet again I rebuild, yet again I persist,
It might not mean much,but I havent ceased to exist.

Maybe I never was what they were looking for,
I tell myself this as i walk into oblivion,
The biggest battle and the greatest war,
Within it is fought and within it is won!

I remind myself things are far over over,
And hope that the ships return to the harbour.
I went about trying to make a difference,
And only gave myself in return this DISTANCE..!

An Unpredictable Life!

I woke up this morning,deciding I wont fret,
But am left with nothing else to do,by the time the sun has set.
And no more does my heart,skip and smile with glee,
I couldn't have been more relieved that the day is behind me.

Projecting a reassuring self on the outside,
Only I feel the storm and the swelling tide.
I wish I could mask myself forever,
Too many bruises and scars to cover.

Reality was beautiful,now its a harsh place,
I'm clinging onto life,wearing a disguise on my face.

A cruel lesson then,that life still had to teach,
Was taught when I was so close to something I had to reach.
I almost had it secured,when it started slipping away,
Slowly the trip to the end began,far from the light of day.

Life is fickle..and life is but a ride,
Today you are complete,tomorrow nothings by your side.
My life,rather swiftly,has turned around on its head,
Just yesterday I was filled with life,today I'm almost dead.

Not so long ago,my spirit was free,
Now its chained,and I've lost the key.
Here things happen quickly,you'll soon lose track,
I wish those days of yesteryear,I could get back.

This happens to be the story of my life,
Keep looking for bliss,all I find is strife.
What I'm living for,I cant live without,
Beneath the peace is fear,one that instills doubt.

Back to those memories,you will have to go,
'Coz life will play a different tune,before you even know.
To rebuild what you've lost,will take a few good years,
I just wish I dont live enough to meet my deepest FEARS!

Man In The Glass!

When you get what you want in your struggle for self
and the world makes you king for a day,
then go to the mirror and look at yourself
and see what that man has to say.

He is the fellow to please,never mind the rest,
for hes clear with you..upto the end.
And you've passed your most treacherous,difficult test
if the Man in the Glass is your friend.

When you try your best,and yet have a rough day
When luck betrays,and nothing comes your way.
Your mind and spirit will still be at truce,
If the Man in the Glass agrees and approves.

For it isn't a man's father,mother or wife
whose judgement upon him must pass,
the fellow whose verdict counts most in his life
is the Man staring back from the Glass.

You can fool the whole world down the pathway of years,
and get pats on your back as you pass,
but your final reward will be heartache and tears
if you've mislead the Man in the Glass!

It's time you learnt there are no shortcuts to success,
And if you really want to rise above the crowd,
Concoct blood sweat and tears,and nothing less
And make the Man in the Glass feel proud!!

What all you give it and how hard you try
matter more than whether you win,
coz to this one person,you cant even lie,
The Glass-man is your twin!

With a mind full of questions and a guilty heart,
You wonder why life,turned out to be a farce.
And then you realise it went wrong at the start..
When you cheated the Man in the GLASS!!

A Phoenix Laments!

He's at the crossroads,not knowing where to turn,
whom to listen to,whose desires to burn.
Hes hoping for intervention,praying for a miracle,
if it doesnt come soon,he will have to take a sabbatical.

When people narrate his story,they do so with respect
he was the next big thing,as far as they could recollect.
What he could've been and what hes been made into,
some happenings..they wished they could undo.

Life's not fair,but life moves on..
now he's reduced to being just a pawn.
But he ain't no pushover,he's going to resist
he's got a strong will,hes going to persist.

Even after all this,the belief is strong,
he will live his dream and prove everyone wrong.
It's all or nothing,theres a lot at stake,
they say " let it go,youve got a future to make".

Its been long,ten summers in all,
little by little, he built up the wall.
But now its shaky,and there is a crack,
and it may be his last chance to make a comeback.

Comeback if he does,he'l earn himself time,
but his fate and destiny are never known to rhyme.
He'l keep bouncing back,he'l swim upstream,
he'l take on the odds to realise his dream.

Now hes resilient,and his teeth are grit,
but inside him...hes got a mutiny,
"no use fighting it,no use living it",
coz in the end,its all about...DESTINY!!!